Why I'm Mentally A Child

9/20/2009.

I am still mentally a child (or compatible with), and probably will be like that for my entire life.

I'm a child for 3 observed reasons:

1.

1 is that I'm a virgin. I argue that for as long as I'm a virgin, I am still mentally a child and can associate with children like 1.

And when I am no longer a virgin, this reason is abolished.

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As a subnote, there was a moment where I really felt like an adult. It was the day I was buying condoms. The time I bought condoms.

I didn't know where to buy condoms so I had to ask someone. At that store, I searched around, didn't know where to find the condoms so asked someone.

As the cashier scanned the condom I saw her eyeing it for a glance as she put it in the bag and go oh man..

Isn't it embarrassing to buy condoms and have a female cashier? I asked. "Not really" was the answer I got.

But as I walked out of the store with the condom box in my bag I really felt like an adult.

Anyways, I was not buying condoms for myself of course, it was soon to be a 39 year-old virgin's 40th birthday, so I wanted to mail him a condom as a prank (and I signed my name as a Black person that we both knew).

2.

The 2nd reason is, well, can be explained by the below screenshot.

The question was "Do you mind if your gf or bf hug other people?" and the details were.

"or its not a problem?

this can be for single people to answer as well.

for instance a person says hello to your bf or gf and then your bf or gf gives them a hug since the person who says hello wants one."

This should make me forever a child. If I had a girlfriend or wife, I wouldn't care if she talks to other guys, hugs other guys, flirts with other guys, flashes other guys, or have sex with other guys. I find it ridiculous to get jealous (or envy) over something like that.

It may have to do with the fact that I view everything in this universe is a privilege, and not a right, and from an atheist point of view, we all come and die.

However, being an atheist may not be a part of it, because when I 1st held this view, I was a theist.

This probably started as early as age 6 when I watch movies and see how men get angry when they find out their loved ones cheated on them, but seriously, I'm like, who gives a $hit? Who gives a sh1t who goes to bed with whom?

In that case, I miss being a child when nobody my age cared.

The central idea here is young children don't care when other girls or guys talk to other guys or girls, but they end up caring when they're older and there may be a evolutionary instinct to that but not me.

Note: this section and the below may be parallel with an introduction to privileges.

3.

The last reason is that I am autistic. So it's like some sort of curse that we're pretty much mentally the same, regardless of our age.

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